My 3 books

Science got bazaar today!! Ok nothing exactly new . But happened to spot old books for sale and found some interesting books. So decided to splurge my money to, ya know, reward myself. Plus it's my birthday soon (*hint hint*), so I went to look through the books.

First book I found was from one of my favourite fantasy authors, Anne McCaffrey, "Power Play". She usually writes book series, so this is like the third of her 'Power' series. I have read the first one, "Powers that be", so decided to borrow the second one and get hold of this one. Usually Singapore library books are like strewn all over the island...

Second book I spotted was "The Tunnel of Cu Chi". About the Vietnam Wars. The only reason why I bought it was because I am going Vietnam. So I thought it would be a good read on the train trips across Vietnam and probably I can have a better feeling of the land while I am travelling there. Incidentally, Singapore's run of the "世界正美丽" during the weekend was on Vietnam!! It was SOOOO interesting!! Couldn't wait to go Vietnam LOLX... Although my mum's best friend (yes R, ZY's mum) just came back from Vietnam and said it was hot 到..... She said "not fun at all"... Well we shall see...

Third book, to all German kakis, "HEISENBERG and the Nazi Atomic Bomb Project"! Familiar name, familiar name. Think he is the one that had hay fever and went to full-of-fresh-air and, quoting from Wiki, pollen-free, Helgoland (for those interested to know this German Archipelago in the North Sea) and Munich. Yeah yeah... Think they should occupy me for quite sometime, after I finish Little Prince, which I find a tad too boring for my liking. I know it's a classic. But apparently, I don't have affinities with a lot of classics, as in the likes of Tom Sawyer, Huckleberry Finn, Great Expectations etc... Find them a little too verbose and a little pompous for my taste. Struggling very hard to finish it although I know again, it is a children's book.

ALL 3 books for just 15 SGD!! Sonderangebot! Sonderpreis! Whilst stock last!! LOLx... Aftereffect of Produktvorstellung last week.

Speaking of my birthday, I have a job interview on my birthday!! Plus there is a German test on that day!! Dang... But well, hopefully my birthday star will shine so bright that I can pass all with superb results. Not like last time. Buang until... haiz...

But well, I am truly looking forward to graduation now that my thesis is over. Hey people, for those of you we graduating together ahz, must take photo that day ahz. Dun all dao ahz.. YOU there, dun act act what camera-shy. Act that day 抓你拿去枪毙!! WAHAHAHA!!

My FYP Thesis

While my printer prints away, I shall blog about the entity that has been my life and bane for the past one year and has been denying me sleep for the past one month.

FYP!!!

And it all boils down to these piles of paper. Can you believe that thesis is 63 pages, appendices included?!?! Look at that thickness. Ok, I was bored waiting for 3 X 63 pages to be printed, so I did a comparison with our all-so-familiar Hueber German course book. It is about the same!!! The longest cock-and-bull story I have ever weaved! And guess what, my reference list filled up 9 A4-size FULL pages!! I couldn't believe I read that amount of literature for a single project. HA! *smug*

Ok one set of thesis done. 2 X 63 pages more to go...

Remember the 12-page map? 3X4 A4 papers, couldn't resist taking a photo of my bro and my masterpieces. Here's one of them. 3 of those k....


At 7 am in the morning, My aunt's tenant just woke up and saw me and asked, "Did you just wake up or did you not sleep?" I said "Errr dint sleep lo." Then she said,"Cos you still looked so spunky!"

Well of course la... BIG DAY lehz haha... Finally my life can be normaler and my sleep pattern can resume LOLX.

Seriously other than my thesis, my head is now a groggy piece of grey matter. Literally. So just let me stone and ya, I should be back to normal soon :P

"Looked in my mirror, who's that freak!"

How apt a 孙燕姿 song!!

Thought I saw a skeleton floating in midair im Spiegel!!! O-M-G!!

Ok exaggerating... haha

Although I am still struggling now, and that my project is NOT complete, and that WK hat mir gesagt, that that is so so not good (:P), I am SO SO glad the thesis dateline is tomorrow. God bless that nothing goes wrong :P

Then I am left with the final exams and get my ass out of school. For now at least.

HA!

Milestone

Ok finally reached a certain milestone that I could rest for a while, before catching my breath and continuing.

Realised my friend's in Japan for SEP! So many people away siahz. I have a friend who is in China now on SEP as well. Rus is in Australia. Wer noch?

After German 6 today, is project discussion, which first draft is due FRIDAY. NOOOOO!!! Ok, that day and weekend's burnt too... Cos my Structural Bio assignment is due Monday. Plus next Wed is IPPT. zzzz. Haha, but thinking that after Friday I am free from FYP just brings happy thoughts :P

YZ just came back from Goettingen and was offered a scholarship!! One of six persons from all over the world!! *CLAP CLAP* But sadly she said she is turning it down cos she doesn't like the lab. But good la, they paid for her flight to Germany for the interview k... LOLX *envious envious* But she bought goodies for us :P *Hanuta.. Qoooo* Then we were discussing about career prospects. Seems like everybody got a 出路 already, but where is mine!?!? Ok, PRIORITY EINS nach dem FYP - Job search...

I really like my German classmates. They are such a warm, happening, conversant bunch of cool people. Many I have grown closer to and am really glad for our friendships :P Let's go KBOX again or SETTLERS, when things are a little more manageable.

SW skipped class today, cos his sis gave birth to a second child, a girl!! CONGRATS!!

Was tokking to YC, then realised I might have more than one grad trip. OOps... Rus, are we going diving still? HAHA...

Then went down to my bro's room to do my FYP. Helping me with the printing of a 12-page map. Really couldn't ask for a better bro, who goes all out to help me whenever I ask for help, albeit his temper is sometimes so bad. Well, 23 years with him, minus first 5 years of ignorance, I think I have grown to handle such temperaments. Sowieso a big THANK YOU!! I will buy you a camera soon HAHA!! With my first paycheck perhaps.

Basically, I love my life. *smug*

Except the fact that my stomach's flatulent again...

~ Don't trouble trouble, unless trouble troubles you ~

GOOD Friday indeed

Ok because I have vented anger on two persons already, I shall let out the last few ounce of anger left in me. To prevent internal injury that may otherwise cause further diarrhoea sensation in the stomach. Let me recount.

I was suppose to meet my sogenannte Boss (think academic) at 1430 on a GOOD FRIDAY. No doubt that is a subarashi Empfehlung by him, considering the fact that Thursday morning he has to prepare for his Thursday afternoon lecture and I have no idea what he would like to do during his oh-so-important Thursday evening, when I asked him on Wednesday. It has to be that important to allow him to even consider FRIDAY, otherwise he really is a $&!@#&@.

*deep breath*

I reached his office at 1425. Saw his office lights off. A-HA! Sensing something wrong, I went to find his assistant, who told me he was there in the morning but has probably gone to lunch at 1300, and usually he takes more than an hour. 1430-1300 = 1 hour 30 min. Ok, never mind since he is Boss, I shall wait, considering the fact it is GOOD FRIDAY and buses are few and far to come by. Time vergeht happily, while I worked on my thesis and prepare what I wanna tell him and ask him, having this impression that I might need to explain what I did so far and what I need to do from here, considering the dateline is next week. Clock strikes 1545.

*Blood bubbles a little*

It's ok. I will wait. So then at 1600, finally he came. Forgetting the fact that 1430 was fixed by him, and Good Friday was fixed by him, I got ready my materials and laptop for a presentation of what I did and need to ask him. Went in.

"So yes. What is it about?" "I did my simulation already and would like to ask about what I should analyse from my simulation. My map is on (this) and if I could just show you..." "No, it's ok you dun have to. Just tell me briefly" -(technicals) (technicals) less than a minute - "So do I need to show you my results and perhaps my thesis before I hand up." "No it's ok. I have complete confidence in you. And I dun think I have time to read so I will just look at the final piece. Ok?"

*Blood boils to the max*

That was so obviously a 逐客令. Like I can "not ok". Plus can you sense the reluctance to wanna know about what I did from the entire procedure? For God's sake I am HIS student!! What confidence when you probably dun even remember my name and the time we were supposed to meet!?! BALLS! This is 100 degree celsius!! The entire talk was not even more than 20 minutes lo. And guess what? There was nothing official about this. I was standing the whole while just verbal exchanges!! No presentation, no specific questions to what I did, no nothing. Thanks....

*ok ok tief tief atmen*

Good: I dun really have to give a shit about him anymore. I get to do my own thing, my way.
Bad: He will probably get a shock when he sees my thesis, hopefully not mark me down, since he has confidence in me anyway. I will have less guidance.

Anyway, anger started to die down as I was trying to keep my temper from flaring outwardly and attract attention, when I saw a few interesting scenes when I was going home.

Saw this sandcastle thingy being built at the playground opposite NUS, across the bridge. Some kids must have built. So nice right? Reminds me of when I was young, when more playgrounds have sand.

Then saw this mini FIBUA in the park opposite my house!! !! A mini war was seriously taking place!! All are handmade models!! Can you see the tanks, the buildings and down to even the mines and barb wires (black things amongst the grass)?? The enthusiasts were there discussing the different techniques to model and stuff. All the tanks are remote-controlled!!! Check out the remote control in that guy's hand. So big! Maybe can fire cannon one!! Damn cool! Geil!!

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真难想象，有时简简单单的童真与玩具竟会让人的情绪变得那么快。Sometimes the simplest things in life are the most influential ones. Irony? Naw, it's just life I guess.

否极泰来，好天气即将来临！！Go Go 加油！！

Er setzt fort..... zzzz

The toilet is my favourite hideout today.... Couldn't sleep just now... Have to stay up do work till 7 am before I could finally sleep properly... Not because of work, but the verdammt stomach....

Nothing comes out... I am already drained... Sianz... Still got FYP.... Tomorrow meet Prof somemore....

I think I am getting better.

Cross my heart and cross my fingers.

Let all these be over soon.

做只打不死的蟑螂。。

Wait let me go toilet first...

My Mums

万一我妈突然间心血来潮来这里，所以就先用华语：

妈，生日快乐！！

爸最近一直上网游览或许老妈有一天也会也说不定，哈哈！！

Called my mum today to wish her a happy birthday. Sung a birthday song halfway and she went "Huh? 鸣，你说什么？听得到我说话吗？" Yah, she happened to be in an MRT, on her way to meet my aunt. Sian ji bua... Singing on a speaker phone mode in a bus is weird enough. Sing halfway somemore LOLX... Uebrigens for those of you who dunno, my phone's voice emitting thingy is spoilt, so I will be broadcasting all of your voices if u all call me. Anyway, we celebrated for her last Saturday already. My brother bought a cake, a TINY pink heart-shaped one... Can you see how MINUSCULE it is!?! But well, my mum said it was cute. Did I tell you people before my mum's an angel? Well, if not, I shall say it again: my mum's an angel! *听天使在唱歌，我们都要快乐*

Anyway then later was taken up by me going to the toilet and having diarrhoea for the rest of the day. Quite weird. Dunno what I ate. Maybe it's the entire regular Hawaiian pizza and the chicken drumsticks. Even Siwei said that was a lot. But I thought it was ok. But then again, my stomach has to have retarded senses: I ate them yesterday and I got diarrhoea like late afternoon today.

Na ja, macht nichts. But my aunt was quite frantic when I had diarrhoea. Gave me some 风油 to put on my stomach, then ask me to put a lot a lot, “哪里够！！ 要这样。。” Then she went on to pour a huge 'puddle' then apply it on my stomach. Then she made hot milo and hot cereals. Then called my mum (heard her call while I was in the toilet) to ask for advice. Then gave me Po Chai pills. By now I am like half-recovered, though stomach still not well. But that was probably the fastest recovery ever. I think I am so blessed to have a second mum, let alone one as wonderful and beautiful as her.

So basically today's my mum's birthday. And I had diarrhoea.

Ok no link.

And I love my both my Mums.

>> Can't you see the link?

Autograph

Ok I am not the one being autographed here. *obviously*

But I received this autograph book from my friend to write. It's been a long time manz since I write in an autograph book. Think the last time was in JC. Never thought I would write in one again. Very surprising when I saw the book on the seat when I went for lecture LOLX. Surprise here is two-fold: 1) the autograph book and 2) the pink book (XL, pls dunt squeal). Although I find it a bit too pinkish and too beyond-words-to-describe (yes ZHI totally agree with you) and I thought only 6-year-old HL would want this kindda thing, I was equally happy, cos it reminds me of old times.

Back then, autograph books held a lot of meanings. It marks the end of a milestone of my life. It holds some dear memories of people that have gone through thick and thin in that year with me. I wondered who started this autograph thingy, but it was in primary 6 that I sort of pick it up. I remembered going around my primary school class, cajoling and even coercing people for autographs and drawings!! HAHA!! I am the only one in class who had the ENTIRE class of 42's autographs *smug*

Then secondary school came. Secondary 4, I went around garnering autographs as well. Then by JC2's time it almost seemed like a ritual already, only this time I included my OAC peeps. Of course, I have all 3 of the books with me, nicely kept. Now, photos are my prized possessions as well.

Photos and books are my life framed in tangibility. I prefer things more tangible.

虚无缥缈，给我海市蜃楼，井中月的感觉; 摸不着，也抓不透。

And when you actually look at your photos and books, you will see how much you have grown. For better or for worse. Nonetheless, they never fail to brighten my day.

向往着那时的笑容

Yup indeed, they have never once failed to liven up my spirits.

想起童年时的懵然，当时对世界的坦然，那天真无邪的自然，发现快乐其实并不难。

Oh, and I remembered I will read everybody's entries whenever I get an autograph book. Interested in what people say, how they write, how they decorate usw. One more thing about autograph books. They always have quotes! HAHA! And I love quotes.

So here's one and one of my all-time favourite:
Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy.
-- Cynthia Nelms

So to you people, who are feeling frustrated and moody and angry and irritated, take a deep breath and SMILE!

撑

有那么一点撑不下去的感觉。。。

忽然狂想：到底“撑不下去”是何滋味？

脑海浮现出自己的影子，嘴里塞满了十个包子
——“你给我吃！！哼！！那还不撑死你！！”

的确不是滋味。。。

所以，我想我还是打算慢慢吃我的‘包子’，慢慢咀嚼，慢慢品尝。我想, 到最后，必定有一番滋味。

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FYP 真想把你给吃了。。。

My First Official Job... Interview in my Life

Job searching does not suck I think, they are just plain convoluted. Lots of preparation to be done, and usually not much of the preparation is used, since most part of the interview I usually play by ear; basically I dumped most preparation to the back of my head. But well, that's my strength and my fallacy. You will see why...

Sowieso if you minus the internship interviews, then this is probably my first JOB interview in my entire 24 years plus plus months on Earth. Sadly, it didn't feel remotely significant. But I do have a lot of introspection on today's interview by MOE.

>> MOE?
>> What else, for teaching lo.

The interview lasted only 15 min. Think this is the shortest interview in my life thus far. The questions were not hard, common even. The interviewers, 2 ladies, 1 guy. The guy sounded interested, the younger lady looks friendly and even genial, the older lady more stern and only seemed to smile (or force-smile) when I smile at her. Think she is the most experienced of them. Must have seen enough people like me to see through my smokescreen. Thankfully, no smokescreen today. All naked swords and shields; open arena fighting.

Then come "Is teaching your main priority?". I wrestled with my answer for 2 seconds in my head and decided to come clean. I actually heaved (a little over-dramatically imo) and said "Frankly speaking, no."

I bit my tongue. (Figuratively)

The next 2 seconds, millions of thoughts hammered through my head, plus a huge and 'loud' siren that shouted 'Mayday'... zzzzz... I was so stumped on I said that I forgot to mask that answer with diplomatic elaborations when I usually would. There and then, I knew that's it for this interview. Whatever ensues will not matter anymore I guess. Trotzdem I trodded on with my usual, to at least try to end off the interview with grace.

Thinking back, the whole interview lacks passion on my part, which I think was what they were looking out for. So even without that hiccup, I wouldn't fare outstanding anyway.

DISCLAIMER: I do love teaching. I have been coaching, tuition-ing, doing some teaching in one way or another in places (school, work, army, voluntary services etc) when my friends needed help, tuition centres etc etc. As in, it's one of those things I would probably be really comfortable and visualise myself doing. But currently it is seriously not one of the main things high up on the list.

(In my head)>> BUT all things aside. That kindda answer is suicidal and stupid can. Please lo, there can be MANY priorities in life. Just make teaching one. THERE AND THEN. Not like they care about whatever you think AFTER you get the job.

Ya I know. Well, treat this as a prelude to the EDB one tomorrow.

Maelstrom March Operation underway.

Right Brain >> Well don't you just love that alliteration? *chuckles*

Left Brain >> Oh please, f*ck off... Gimme a break... *roll eyes*

Clearing the Cobwebs

Don't you just love the alliteration?

Ok, I know I have not been updating *yes...* but seriously, I am up to my neck to write a proper entry.

Hehe so here's one not-so-proper entry to tell u guys out there: I am not dumping this blog yet!

I am pretty much into Chinese again these few weeks, wonder why. Sudden urge, like my night hunger pangs. So think might write an entry in Chinese. Might be in the form of some literary work (dun vomit), I suddenly have the Lust (German) to write. So stay tune :P

2 interviews... 2 government boards... MOE. EDB. Totally unprepared... Do we get to apply for the same job twice? Somehow, I regret signing up for a teaching job so early in my career...

Ok on to prepare for my day later...

Keep it going guys... The end is nigh...